I have developed a useful relationship with fear, I call it useful because now I use fear as a launch pad; no longer is it a cage that keeps me bound. Fear uses deception to appear much bigger than what it actually is, like a magic trick; you think you know what you are seeing but it’s actually an illusion. In the past I would summon fear, scream at it and wait for it to disappear. Disappear it would, maybe for a day or even a few weeks, but surely enough it would come back knocking at the door and like a useless boyfriend you know you shouldn’t…